Motivation is so lacking these days and I don't know what to do about it. Am I setting myself up to fail with putting too much expectation on myself? Shouldn’t I be jumping up and down and wanting to see my horse every single second? I chalk it up to the winter blues in part and wishing she was in my backyard with a open window into my bedroom so she can “hang out” with me when I’m reading in bed. I'm becoming less and less happy with cold weather and it’s honestly been mild just windy, I want to stay inside under a heated blanket than spend hours in the barn working on something I'm not 100% confident on how to work on! Even with the indoor arena I find the chill miserable. What’s wrong with me?? Look at that cute face!!
In previous posts I mentioned that I would go home from work and then go to the barn, well that time slot doesn’t work really well…especially since the husband has been home. It’s hard for me to leave the time spent chilling with him to go see my little mare. I’d honestly rather just leave from work to get to the barn first thing at about 4:30pm and then get home around 6:30-7pm. But 4:30pm is right when the horses are being fed, so what am I to do? I wish I got off work earlier but I don’t. I have a little hay net and used that once so Dani could snack while I groomed her but is this a good practice? I don’t want her tummy grumbling and I feel she’ll be in a better mood if I’m not completely taking her away from her meal. I don’t have time to work her each evening for very long so it’s not like all the blood will be leaving her stomach to go to muscles and potentially cause issues with her GI system. The other thing is that she gets only hay in the evenings. Her supplement, which is vitamins and a handful of grain to mix, is fed in the morning. I really just need to go when it’s best for me or I won’t go at all!! Like I said I don’t have time to “really” work on things when I get out there so I should just go and work on tiny things when I go. I need to get better about this and know that I don’t have to go every day, if I can make it out certain days of the week to start that will be good. Small changes!
Now as to the gym…I need a cattle-prod alarm clock! Anyone have an idea where I can get one of those?
I've gone to see Dani most days the past couple of weeks, I maybe didn't see her for two days in a row at most. I also didn’t even do any “work” with her this weekend. Why? I’m tired, unmotivated in general and the weather in the evenings gets cold…not a good excuse! I haven’t been to the gym myself in who knows how long because I can’t seem to get myself out of bed in the mornings! I know my mare is happy and fine living her life in a big pasture with other friends, and gets looked at and cared for each day, that’s the benefit of full board. I wish she was closer but there isn’t a facility that is closer to my home that is what I consider a good option for board. Of course I’ll keep my eyes open for one but I like Whispering Winds, I can’t complain except for my proximity to it. Uge, I’m rambling. I just feel unmotivated in life in general. Don’t know what my deal is but I need to change that!
In previous posts I mentioned that I would go home from work and then go to the barn, well that time slot doesn’t work really well…especially since the husband has been home. It’s hard for me to leave the time spent chilling with him to go see my little mare. I’d honestly rather just leave from work to get to the barn first thing at about 4:30pm and then get home around 6:30-7pm. But 4:30pm is right when the horses are being fed, so what am I to do? I wish I got off work earlier but I don’t. I have a little hay net and used that once so Dani could snack while I groomed her but is this a good practice? I don’t want her tummy grumbling and I feel she’ll be in a better mood if I’m not completely taking her away from her meal. I don’t have time to work her each evening for very long so it’s not like all the blood will be leaving her stomach to go to muscles and potentially cause issues with her GI system. The other thing is that she gets only hay in the evenings. Her supplement, which is vitamins and a handful of grain to mix, is fed in the morning. I really just need to go when it’s best for me or I won’t go at all!! Like I said I don’t have time to “really” work on things when I get out there so I should just go and work on tiny things when I go. I need to get better about this and know that I don’t have to go every day, if I can make it out certain days of the week to start that will be good. Small changes!
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I'm with you on being unmotivated!! Come time to provide lunch/room service it takes everything I have to bundle up and head down to the barn. Once I do, I'm the opposite and don't want to head back in!
me too - i get home from work and just sit in front of my kindle reading game of thrones book 3, so lazy. but last week i decided i needed help getting up in the morning, partially because i hate the blaring beeping of my husband's clock. i splurged and got a sunrise simulation clock (phillips is the brand, it cost 101Euros). i don't know if it would help you, but it helps me get up earlier, like even 6 AM (gasp) because it's such a gentle way of waking up (first the light is pink/orange, then brighter and brighter). by the time the little birds start singing/radio starts playing, i'm really ready.
that sucks that your arrival time is feeding time!
I'm thinking I might try the $2 version and set up a light on a timer and see if that helps. Then I can place a picture of my fat self next to that lamp, pictures of the cute clothes I want to buy and a "image" of me looking bad ass doing something awesome. But yeah I need something!!! Been bad about this alarm thing since I was in high school!!!
Yeah the feeding time thing sucks but then about an hour or so later the place is vacant and I worry that if I'm there alone and something bad happens....I'll go with being there when it's more busy for now. I've got to get my butt in gear!!
hey, you and me girl. if only we could say, "i have a horse and grooming/scooping poop in the pitch black night of lattitue 51 sucks."
spring will happen-at least, it's what i've promised myself every year so far in this desolate winter wasteland called nordrhein-westfalen.
I think it's the snow/weather thats causing you to be unmotivated. When I was in anatomy & physiology class, I heard the body releases a hormone (forgot the name) when it is dark and rainy (in your case snowy) that makes the person want to sleep and not be active. Wonder if that could be it? I hate being cold, so I would be the same way if I had snow. I'm sure she doesn't mind you just saying "hi" to her thou!
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