I am no longer leasing Pstar. Laurie was completely sympathetic about how I felt while working with Pstar alone. I feel terrible that I didn't realize how much horse she was. She's still a sweetie in the paddock and I can love on her when I go out for my lessons and even have a lesson lunging her but I won't be having the one on one time of a lease that made me feel a bit unsafe.
For now I'm considering what my next move will be as far as leasing a horse goes. I could find one close in town to ride during the week and on the weekends perhaps. Perhaps a nice trail horse, any breed. Spring is coming along and the hubby and I have a lot of yard work to get done plus hiking season should start in a few months and we wish to get back into that full swing. We'll see how things go. Still paying down debt and awaiting the day where I can search for my first mount!