Looking back at the past few years I see my neck surgery that prevented me from riding for a year really set me back, only physically for a period of time, doctor's orders, after that it was mental. Once I was back and able to ride I'd honestly been out of the habit of riding regularly. It was too easy to just fall back to not riding and prioritize other activities. We have more than enough projects at our house and on the property that I've done more with those items than riding Daenerys. Why? That's the hard part...lack of motivation, tired from work, the gosh darn humid hot summers I hate....who knows.
Chance is officially retired due to his degenerative suspensory ligaments (DSL) in his hindlegs. We are trying to manage his heaves and Cushings and hopefully not riding him will keep him comfortable in relation to the DSL. He's a sweet horse to have a around and for Dani to boss around. But Dani, she'll be good to go I hope in a few months. She never was going to be an eventing horse but well, I'm not an eventing rider either!
 |
| The evil equihaler |
What do I want in the future of horsing? That's a tough one, I feel like there is often stuff in my life I want to do but then I just get tied up with other stuff. I have to stay set on my priorities; that's always been difficult for me. What I always wanted to do is go on trail rides, go to clinics about doing trail obstacles and fun trail competition (ride and tie, small endurance type events etc). I love riding Dani but there will come a day when she can't or shouldn't be ridden just like with Chance.
Then there is the trailering issue, I have not had success with trailering Dani. She has gotten on a trailer and has been a good girl at times but swinging the dividers or closing the door, that's when she really puts up the fight. I haven't been able to deal with that as someone not experienced with trailering horses. Adding this complexity to it had been a bit much and moving to NC I lost my horse network that helped me with these types of things. Here I have to trailer my horse to events to build that network but I can't trailer my horse....chicken and the egg. My fearful mind would wonder "what if I successfully trailer her somewhere but then can't get her back on afterwards and I'm stuck in a parking lot with a silly horse that won't load?"
Dani is a homebody and that's okay. I love her to pieces not matter what. She is my first horse, the horse that I could trust after having some fearful falls, the horse that I knew was a great match for me. She had some challenges but is a perfect partner to play around with; my crazy chestnut mare. With the new pasture design we are working on there is an area in the difficult slopping pasture that is flatter; I am going to make this my dedicated riding area. Maybe someday it will officially be like an arena with good footing but for now it will work as a dedicated pony work area. This was going to be the area for Steve's workshop (my riding area was then going to be where we tore out an older shed). We priced buildings and were floored so he's altering plans and now I have too....that's how it goes.
I'm starting to research a future horse. A younger but well trained horse that I can cart all over the place and do clinics, trail rides etc. I've been wanting to learn about some gaited breeds too. This next year I'll be looking at some Kentucky/Rocky Mountain horses, Paso Finos and maybe Peruvian Pasos, I've already reached out to breeders where I can come meet their horses and ride some to help decide if I want a gaited breed and if so what kind. If I have a horse that I can trailer with no problem I'll be able to start to build a horse friend network here that I haven't thus far; not being able to bring Dani to events has been a little isolating. When I boarded her....I met people, I rode with people and there was a shared good time by horse people. I loved that about boarding.
Steve is not really a rider. He really needs a horse that he can just get on every once in a while having not ridden in 6 months...so probably no horse for him. He'll go for a trail ride at a trail ride rental place with me but he doesn't have the time or desire really to learn to ride and do it regularly. That's fine. He really wants a donkey, so we'll get him a donkey someday I guess. In Colorado we'd planned on getting that 3 horse trailer and then another horse and perhaps a mule or donkey and going on trips, and overnighters with the riding club. Obviously that never happened.
I was hoping the venture of horse riding was going to become a thing Steve would enjoy. He loves the horses and loves caring for them but riding and getting out on trails isn't really a draw for him. For me I need to truly understand that and continue on my own. Sure he'll come to some events and hang out. Maybe I can get him involved in a ride an tie type event since he wants to get back into running....so do I actually. If we get a horse that we can cart around we can do an event like that and maybe have a ball together! And when it's just me and that horse we can do other events.
So the next few months I plan to get into better shape, just like Dani I've had a bit too much grass! I may ride locally at a place I found that rents horses for trail or arena work. And then I'll work with Dani once I get the vets okay and play with her around here. My neighbors ride in the woods nearby and if I get Dani back up to speed we could go too I hope. My neighbors are nice but I'm not sure how comfortable I'll be riding with them since even after 6 years we are still the new kids on the block.
Dani's a good horse that you don't need to ride often to keep their head in the game, that's one of her great qualities. She could be a horse Steve could hop up on occasionally if I keep her ridden some. She's my special girl. I love her to pieces and I really hope that she will be long lived. I will do my hardest to figure out how to manage Cushings and insulin resistance in her. I won't give up on trailering her either, with a future horse that can be trailered why not try and see if Dani can come too? That would mean getting Steve to come out to ride....I have to just concentrate on me.....going off on tangents and the same dream as before. This is my hobby, my love. I have to do what is right for me. Steve's supportive but not a cowboy.
I'm reminded of Colorado, me and skiing. I went a lot with the man I dated before Steve. This man was passionate about skiing. I loved it too and went with him and we really enjoyed skiing. When I started dating Steve I continued to go skiing and he occasionally went with me and we had fun. I started going less and less though since I missed hanging out with Steve and I didn't have ski buddies to go with, it was fun but I was becoming bored honestly. It wasn't a passion, so it didn't bother me that much that I went less. Then I started leasing a horse, then I bought one. Weekends were now pony time!
Since horses are my love I can't be held back by wanting to do other things with Steve or by all the house projects I have on my to do list. I have to dedicate time to riding and I know he understands and encourages it...it's the voice in my head that wants to hang out with him or do stuff together and feels bad that I'm out in the barn or what not. There is time for hanging with the hubs, I just have to prioritize my interests too. I have to cut out the time for myself and my pony friends, pen it in on the calendar. It's important for me.
But now I have a thought, perhaps it was easier to plan this time out when it wasn't a "daily out the back door gotta muck and feed everyday" kinda thing. When my horse was a car drive away and I didn't see her everyday, each time I made the trip I was there to ride, I groomed, I played! It's been too easy to fall into the idea that I see my horses everyday and I muck and feed everyday, pick hooves or clean up a silly beast that rolled on poop...that's good enough. It's great I get that time, don't get me wrong. I love having horses in my back yard. Going outside to grill or get a tool from the shed I'm nickered at; that will never get old. I have to block off time to do the really fun stuff, the riding and training stuff!
With time being so limited on this earth I need to make the time to do what I love. Dani will heal and I hope I will be riding her early next year. I also hope to find a horse that I can load, trail ride and go out and meet horse people here. I miss the comradery that is "horse people".
It's very alien to think about buying another horse. I knew logically I would eventually get another horse as Chance was aging and Dani is only one year younger. This laminitis episode has made me really assess my horse life. I will ride Dani when she's better, I'm confident that will be a possibility. And I will begin a new adventure with another horse too, that can expand my horizons some. In my head I feel like I would be abandoning Dani but that's silly. If you only have a Fiat but you need to haul things because hauling things is how you make a living, well you buy a truck right?
I knew buying Dani that she didn't load or haul well. I accepted that, she was perfect for me in every other way and I've grown and learned so much with her and continue to learn! She is my heart. I shouldn't feel weird about getting another horse to do more with right?
So this is the future of horsing for me. I miss being fully immersed in the horse world with other horse people. This coming year I have breeders to meet and horse breeds to learn about. This world is full of noise that pulls you in so many directions. Don't forget your center. What is your center, what makes you calm, whole, happy? Is your center painting? Is it skiing? Mountain biking? Hiking? Writing? Horses?
...
...
...
...
...
...
Horses.
